Today I am struggling with feelings of failure, dread, grace, regret, excitement, and hope. Well, that is at least a start to describe the myriad of emotions that have been toying with me the past few days. This is the deal. I love Jesus and wish to spend time with Him in prayer, His Word, meditation and worship; however, like Apostle Paul stated so eloquently in Romans 7:19 "For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want." I realized that by not being diligent in my devotional time and fervent in seeking Him daily I am in effect doing worse than nothing at all. Knowing what to do and not doing it is worse than just not doing something.
See, it really hit me hard that I have no excuse (except love of self) for my lack of effort in maintaining a healthy relationship with my Lord. By the way, what is healthy for one is not necessarily healthy for another. I basically put Christ in the 'unwelcome visitor' status where you give token attention and time to but really wish you could be off doing something different. Subtle rudeness is still rudeness. I laid on my pillow last night with the song "I Miss My Time With You" running through my head. I feel broken. As my body heals I realize that I need my spirit to heal and get back its strength. I don't want to have any regrets over lost time, moments, days that I could have been basking in His presence but I chose not to.

Forgive me Lord! Draw me close to You and Hide me under the shadow of Your Wing!

Pictures For Daddy

These are pictures that Jennifer and Jordan have taken with their new cameras and they wanted to post so that everyone can see them. Enjoy!

Trust and Obey

Jennifer & Grandma JoJo


(Jordan: Above, Josh & Jennifer's birthday celebration)

This will be the first of many thoughts today.

Trust is more than an idea or a feeling it is an action. As an action word, trust is something that is not static but rather is in motion, a doing, something that has cause and effect. Do I trust You Lord?


Love is an action word too! Love the Lord thy God with all your heart, soul, and mind. Do I love You Lord?

August Already?

I know I am starting to sound like a broken record but...Where does the time go? It seems like it was just Memorial Day and I was breaking my arm and now it is two weeks from school starting back!

To catch y'all up on what is going on in our neck o' the woods I am going to keep it simple and bullet pointed. Email me if you have any questions, need details or just feel like saying 'hi'!

Since last post...

• Finished the guest room and I am pleased for now. Still need to paint the room.
• The Sign of the Dove Ministries International Conference was a great success.
• I had a wonderful, totally awesome time with Mama Gloria (Cooper) from Grants Pass, OR. What a blessing that was to fellowship with her.
• Talked to Don for the first time in forever and it was so pleasant. God is answering prayers!!
• Jennifer turned 12!
• Pastor Daniel Kaggwa and Mama Gloria both left for their respective homes. Miss you guys!
• Jordan made it down to the big Reptile Swap at the Du Page County Fairgrounds and finally got what he really wanted all along, a crested gecko.
• Kendra called and we caught up and it was such a BLESSING!!! (Love you guys!!)